better off single,

i think that this whole relationship thingy is not made for me!

there are times when i just wanna be with him 24/7 even if its just to sit on a couch and do nothing in particular. But then again there are times where i wish i wasnt with him, and that didnt have to deal with his stupidities. i dont expect him to put me 1st in everything, but i dont expect to be the least of his concerns either. I cant stand the fact that hes able to go around his ways to please and do things with a guy that he met a month ago, but yet theres always something that happens if its with me.

i really care about him, and i want wats best for him, but i cant be with someone who isnt himself when other people are around or when that fckn idiot that i cant stand is there.

i could list so many reasons for me to leave him

but the last thing i wanna do is hurt him, i know he loves me and cares about me, but i cant take his bullshit any longer. i know you might think im not patient enough or wtvz. but theres so much i can take.

i just need someone to telle me that i should leave him and i will.

the sooner the better right?!

one big issue tho is that its his bday next week, and wether i break up with him or not, i will get him a present. i just dont want him to think that im leaving him because of that, iunno if it makes sense, or if its just in my head..

wtvz

so wat should i do, tough it up, or just leave him

opinions are very much needed at this point.

till then...

xoxo

soon to be singleM?!

Hes my boyfriend, not yours!

omg k so i have something that i need to share with you. It has been bothering me a lot lately.

here it goes..

so me and my bf have been hanging out with a close friend of mine and her bf. I enjoy hanging out with them but it has become TOO MUCH!

Everytime i get to see my boyfriend, its like a combo, i get to see them too. give us a break!!

Thats not the worst of it.

Her bf is ALWAYS after my bf.

he calls him all the time to make plans and hang out. soo annoying. He always needs my bf to help him with his car.. fuck it feels like he cant do anyhting on his own.

ughh!!

go find urself another bff buddy.

i cant stand his guts, hes all full of himself and treats everybody as if he was better and more important than them.

Yesterday for example, we went to the old port and then we decided to go grab a coffee so my friend and her bf were the ones leading the way.. after maybe 30 minutes of driving..Guess where we end up..

IN FRONT OF HER BFs HOUSE!!!!

why?!?!?!?!

because he wanted my bf to help him do something with the lights of his car

ughhh

i cant take it

he didnt even ask my bf if he minds doing or if he even wanted to for that matter!!

im sooo mad.

is it wrong of me not to want my bf around him much

i dont wanna be the bitchy gf who complains about everything.. i just think that hes full of shit and full of himself.

anyways;

im pissed now

n i miss my bf

i think ill try to get some sleep

goodnight!

till then...

xoxo

PISSED OFF MARIAM!!