better off single,

i think that this whole relationship thingy is not made for me!

there are times when i just wanna be with him 24/7 even if its just to sit on a couch and do nothing in particular. But then again there are times where i wish i wasnt with him, and that didnt have to deal with his stupidities. i dont expect him to put me 1st in everything, but i dont expect to be the least of his concerns either. I cant stand the fact that hes able to go around his ways to please and do things with a guy that he met a month ago, but yet theres always something that happens if its with me.

i really care about him, and i want wats best for him, but i cant be with someone who isnt himself when other people are around or when that fckn idiot that i cant stand is there.

i could list so many reasons for me to leave him

but the last thing i wanna do is hurt him, i know he loves me and cares about me, but i cant take his bullshit any longer. i know you might think im not patient enough or wtvz. but theres so much i can take.

i just need someone to telle me that i should leave him and i will.

the sooner the better right?!

one big issue tho is that its his bday next week, and wether i break up with him or not, i will get him a present. i just dont want him to think that im leaving him because of that, iunno if it makes sense, or if its just in my head..

wtvz

so wat should i do, tough it up, or just leave him

opinions are very much needed at this point.

till then...

xoxo

soon to be singleM?!

Hes my boyfriend, not yours!

omg k so i have something that i need to share with you. It has been bothering me a lot lately.

here it goes..

so me and my bf have been hanging out with a close friend of mine and her bf. I enjoy hanging out with them but it has become TOO MUCH!

Everytime i get to see my boyfriend, its like a combo, i get to see them too. give us a break!!

Thats not the worst of it.

Her bf is ALWAYS after my bf.

he calls him all the time to make plans and hang out. soo annoying. He always needs my bf to help him with his car.. fuck it feels like he cant do anyhting on his own.

ughh!!

go find urself another bff buddy.

i cant stand his guts, hes all full of himself and treats everybody as if he was better and more important than them.

Yesterday for example, we went to the old port and then we decided to go grab a coffee so my friend and her bf were the ones leading the way.. after maybe 30 minutes of driving..Guess where we end up..

IN FRONT OF HER BFs HOUSE!!!!

why?!?!?!?!

because he wanted my bf to help him do something with the lights of his car

ughhh

i cant take it

he didnt even ask my bf if he minds doing or if he even wanted to for that matter!!

im sooo mad.

is it wrong of me not to want my bf around him much

i dont wanna be the bitchy gf who complains about everything.. i just think that hes full of shit and full of himself.

anyways;

im pissed now

n i miss my bf

i think ill try to get some sleep

goodnight!

till then...

xoxo

PISSED OFF MARIAM!!

help?!

confusion?!

whoa, i hate when i dont know what to think and how to behave towards certain things. especially because i tend to always over exagerate situations.

when am i supposed to call him and when am i not. shud i always wait for him to call me first..

shud i get mad if one day the first phone call i get from him is later in the evening?

ughh

im such a kiddd

sometimes i feel like im always after him so i decide to back off and give him space, but then he feels like im mad or fed up of him..

i dont know what i should think or do

i guess all i can do is go with the flow.

anyways

ill stop complaining, eventhough its become a talent for me!!

till then...

xoxo

Mrs. Confusion

WHOOA!

Its been exactly a month and 4 days since i last posted a blog. Today its the first night that im actually just bumming on my couch eating ice cream. I have so much things on my mind! CRAZY!!

1. I have been working a lot lately, so im always waking up really early, which kinda sucks. But on the other hand i love it because it means that i finish early and get to spend time with my BABY♥..

which takes me to number 2

2. On March 22nd 2009, I started dating a great guy who brings out the best of me. He always finds a way to make me smile, laugh or even to get on my nerves by doing the cutest things. He doesnt have to try hard to make me happy. He plays drums guitar and sings.

♥He's my #1 SUPERSTAR♥ and im his #1 GROUPIE♥

I love it when we just drive around in his car, because he always ends up freestyling on a song! Hes adorable and sweet. He has his ways of driving me crazy and has his ways to keep me sane. I love everythign he does and everything he is. I love it when he calls me in the middle of the night just to wish me a good night or when he starts singing OUR SONG to make me fall back asleep. Hes amazing in soo many ways. It doesnt take me much to start missing him. As soon as he leaves my house, i start thinking bout him and how much i wish he was still here.

all that to say that my boyfriend is amazing!

♥

♥

3. Im soo happy the HABS made it to the playoffs!! excitement much!!
GO HABS GO!

4. Im soo pissed that GOSSIP GIRL still isnt on! ughh i hate iti wanna know wat happens!!

UGH!

5. i need to get more motivated and start going to the gym regularly again!

6. I miss a lot of people, and i wish i could see them soon.

ANYWAYS;

need to get some sleep

i work @ 8 tomorrow

ughh

enjoy our song

I'm Yours, by Jason Mraz

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zut0TznmSu0&feature=related

Till then..

xoxo

Mimz

Taking Back Sunday MODE!

So obsessed that I was with

Taking Back Sunday, I hadnt listened to them in sooo long. So a few days ago, I decided to take out their albums and listen to them..Since then thats all I listen to 24/7. Its crazy! its all on repeat.. JEEZ! I get all excited when I listen to them..reminds me of a few years ago..where I would always go to shows.. I miss it now!

GOOD TIMES!

♥

This morning I woke up from a hot ass dreammmm.. oyy I was dating this guy that I find absolutely DROP DEAD BANG ME!

We were the cutest thing tho in my dream..

haha too bad: a dream is just a dream!!

ughh

I have work @ 5 again tonight, and I really dont feel like going in. I HATE MY JOB SOMETIMES!

I wish I didnt have to work :)

OMG.

CARBO IS GONE!

sucks soo harddd

anyhooz

Till then...

xoxo

M

Work for 4 hours. yucky!

helllooo,
I just showered and should start getting ready for work!
I should be out of here at 4, but i still have soo much to do ughh.
I hate working night shifts, theyre soo annoying and useless.
I wish I was rich, and tanned and had all kindz of new clothes..
I cant wait for summer to come.. I wanna wear flipflops. dresses. shorts.
and OF COURSE: ♥icedcaps♥

OH AND BTW..

we won 3-2 last night, I was sooo excitedddd
Go Habs Go!!
alright well thats it for now

MIMI HAS TO GO GET READY :(

Till then...
xoxo
MOI

ps. I WANNA PLAY ROCKBAND!

Im Such a BUMMM!!

Good evening,
I havent really gotten used to this blogging thing yet. Also, it's because I havent really had time to try and understand how this whole thing works. MY JOB IS TO BLAME!! I worked 46 hours this week, I feel BURNT, like I always wanna sleep or just sit around and do nothing. It started on monday. I was scheduled to work from 8-5 which is not so bad. UNTIL.. somebody decides not to come in, and theres nobody to replace her.. SO who has to stay til 9 o'clock. Well who else than ME. I felt bad saying no, although I really didn't feel like staying. I told them I would stay and then I told myself that I had my cellyyy to keep me company. But then I realized that y phone was dead.. omg i was sooo pisseddddddd!!

Then tuesday comes, and I was scheduled from 10-7 which would leave me a few more hours to sleep. BUT OBVIOUSLY i have to go in at 8 because somebody again didnt come in. So missy here has to do 8-7!! oyyy i was sooo iirrriiiitttaaaatteeddd. i ended up asking to leave @ 5 because, my body couldnt take it anymore.
Then wednesday. 8-1.. stayed till 3. punched out and 3;20. then on my way out. i have to punch in again. to build a desk, because the girl with the night shift wouldnt have enough time to do it on her own. COLISS! so i ended up stayin til 6!!! After work, i went to sleep over at my sisters house. it was quite fun. i woke up thursday morning tho, with a weird pain in my left leg. I couldnt walk on it, so couldnt train and sweat like I had planed..
Friday worked 12-9. Since, I'm such a rebel, I have my phone on me while i work, and i use it because I DONT CARE :) so while I was working, my twin Marii txts me. asks me if i wanna go to her house and play rockband with her and her bf MAXXX!! How can you possibly turn down ROCKBAND♥ stayed till about 1am.
SATURDAY: i worked from 11-5;30. After work, my friend Judith came over, we had supper and chilled a bit.. then I had to get my stuff ready to go to Mariis house, because it was a friends BDAY!! "happy bday Vannnn" I get to her house, and obviously Les Enfants Du Pape have to rehearse a bit..btw "Les Enfants du Pape" is our bands name. me marii and max. so we played ROCKBAND! then around 9 me and marii thought it was time to get ready. we had no idea wat to wear and kept on complaining the whole time. ONE THING WERE REALLY GOOD AT! We finally got ready and headed D-town! People at the club were weird. we had ugly people. we had girls rubbing their hair everywhere. we had trashy bitches begging photographers for pictures with random guys that they didnt even know. oyy WEIRD!! we left pretty early, and it felt weird.. especially becuase of the time change. after dancing for a while, we decided to go to LE JARRY.. really good restaurant.. i had a poutine with XTRA cheese. I ate half of it, and then i thought I wouldt explode. so sad! Finally, I got home around 4- 4;30 ish.. Got in bed and KNOCKED OUT!
SUNDAY: I woke up this morning at 10;17 and i was soo tiredddd.. since then all I did was sit, facebook, watch tv, americas next top model.. music, eat.. pretty much i was bored all day. Im soo lazy its not even normal.
The game is on right now, and were losing 1-0 against dallas. and Im pretty pissed offfffff. We need to make it to the playoffss.
Go Habs Go!?!
so thats enough complaining for the day, im so sad the week ends over, and working tomorrow ughh. wish i could be on a beach right now just getting tanned.
well, i have to go pick up my stuff at mariis house now. so i gots to get dressed
till then..
xoxo
ME